Studying can be such a lonely venture.
Hour in hour out with your books, your pens and your notes.
And your brain. Hopefully.

I need to by strong physically and mentally now, and I'm really trying. But I can't even do the things that might cheer me up anymore because I don't have time... I should be focused. I should be concentrated. I should be a robot.

But, my stupid heart just goes fluttering everywhere. Today I managed to ignore it quite well. It is however only temporary.

I need to stop feeling. I need to stop feeling.
The most difficult thing in the world.

Transform, shut myself in.

I bought earplugs today to shut out the noise. That worked a little.
Maybe I can buy feeling plugs as well to shut out the cacophony from my heart?

Only if.